this one is about you (soul speak)

having given me your love and acceptance
having given me so much of your time
having listened to my rantings and ravings
and comforting me when i am down

for being my sounding board
for being that hollow reed
for being my validation, my mirror,

down all the roads we have traveled
and the journeys we have not yet taken
the deep pondering moments we've both shared

i want you to know my gratitude,
my soul wanted me to say,
from that deepest, most sincere place in my heart
with all the tenderness i can bring forth

you are my true friend.

thank you
for grabbing my soul
for meeting my soul
for finding my soul

--bruised orange

to those i have let down

for my friendships lost
no time can erase
the hurt i have caused
but if it helps you to reconcile
i was dead, in a way,
he did kill me
in the worst way
a person can be killed

for the pain
and the confusion
that i may have caused
know it wasn't meant
i couldn't help it
it was all i could do
to survive

i loved you then
through the years of my silence
even though you didn't hear it
i said it every day

and if you find a way
to forgive me
i will be here
waiting

--bruised orange

What it Means to Me

feeling alone, feeling scared,
no reason to, just me with myself.
there you were, right then and there,
you were perfect.

i've been having this happen,
the past couple of weeks.
as crazy as i am now,
don't think i don't notice.

you were right there,
hearing me talk,
listening to me,
you were perfect.

and like the other day,
a friend came to town,
hadn't seen her in a while,
but her timing,
well, it was perfect.

the messages i'm getting,
they don't feel so profound,
until i add them together,
and i hear the sound.

the sound.
i think maybe it is God?
calling me back?
isn't that what you said?
is that even possible?
it's gotten me thinking.

so when i say to you,
you were perfect,
please believe me,
because that is the truth.
perfect timing,
God's instrument.
calling me back,
helping me see,
i'm not alone,
i'm not alone,
i'm not alone.

--bruised orange